poland in brief.

july already? shit. i never reblogged after dublin and krakow and warsaw. it turned out well...cold as hell, but i finally got to see poland. i knew enough polish to get around and ask the basics. we wanted to go to the salt mines on the same day we did auschwitz, but jak daleko wielesa i gdzie jest weilesa just didn't get us there that day. we did see the wawel castle and cathedral. still, i have plenty excuse to go back to poland. yay.

i ended up breaking my glasses on the train ride from krakow from warsaw (appx three hours). we only had a day in warsaw. i passed out for five hours in the hostel. hmm...we pretty much only went to the polish uprising museum, saw a socialist castle, had some perogies, but it was awesome. it was so long ago, that i don't have the energy to type of it right now. poland was the first country i ever wanted to visit, when i found out i was half polish as a child.

on my way home from the dub, we had a layover in newark. i had to leave the airport and get to atlantic city. this cost me some extra money, but i had been so hung up on someone that i just had to go there and see if i was wasting my time. seven hours and four trains after leaving newark airport, i walked a mile or so through the city at night towards my parents' house. i told my job there was a death and i couldn't get back down to florida. i skipped a class or two. i really just layed low in the city for a few days. but the most important part..i didn't see him once. and i could finally get over it. and just like that, i was completely over jersey and indiana. i found closure. maybe even nirvana. magna rosa...and how beautiful it was.

the dub.

so here i am in ireland. at the abigail hostel at 1.18am. been here since yesterday. in the city that is. flying into krakow, poland at 7am. i saw all the main touristy sites....for the third time. christ church...st. pat's catherdral....guinness disillery...temple bar and area. the norm. been there done that. my friend, brian, is all new to this so it's way more exciting for he than i. idk. i just want to upload my photos online so i know they are safe. oh, also went to the jameson distillery and got my whiskey certificate. hopefully be able to upload some pictures onto here later.

met up with an old irish friend i hadn't seen since i was fourteen. had no idea who i was looking for...just a phone number and a name. good times, though. jameson and gingerale is a nice mix. but im excited to go to poland. jesus. six people sleeping in our hostel....i didn't make it to sleep until 3am last night due to jet lag and loud people running around. i don't mind it much. but ive been to ireland three times now...and there isn't really anything new to see in dublin, especially.

i've still got it bad and that's making me quite the downer. i don't know what to do, if anything, about it. i'm just constantly thinking about it...even now...five drinks later. we have to walk to the bus stop around 4.30am....it's 1.30 now. yay. it's a short flight to krakow...on ryanair, mind you, so it may be interesting.......it's probably going to snow. wow. okay im gonna take a nap before i have to wake up. ill be six hours ahead and even colder tomorrow.

besitos.

depletion.

my tank is way past empty. im going to crash. waiting around for phone calls from people with numbers of other people in poland....my mom waited til the last minute to contact my family, so i doubt anything on that part is going to go through. my uncle hasnt been there since 1968. that going back to soviet shit. even before solidarity and shit. i feel like hell. ive slept like 8 hours over the past three days. i packed last weekend, but i dont remember what i packed. i and dont feel like unpacking to check. oh well....here goes nothing.

emotions and airplanes.

you know something is wrong with me when ive lost the stamina associated with an upcoming trip. too much on my mind. too many papers. too much work. a boy. i don't even feel like going on the ireland/poland trip on which i am about to embark in two days. im sad and lonely. there's someone i like. a lot. and he is consuming my mind to the point where everything else seems.......blah. i know, that's not my personality at all.

no news, no feelings.

so, five months have lapsed since my last recording. my fall/winter expeditions were dry and mundane. i went to indianapolis for a grand total of five time....for what? a boy, that apparently doesnt care. burn. spent december up north...eight days in.....yea, indianapolis.

then i flew to philly....spent a few days in atlantic city..then drove seven hours to vermont to snowboard a couple of days.....back to the city...met up with old friends....then felt the urge to drive to d.c. on a hangover and three hours sleep....it was sweet though. nothing quite compares to old stomping grounds. but nothing is ever the same. simultaneously, nothing is different. it is what it is.

grad school = a bitch. gives you no time to yourself. it's a constant avalanche of readings, writings and presentations. at least i passed. four jobs in tandem with a full graduate schedule is not ideal in any way shape or form. so i quit my office job. still, i just picked up more hours at starbucks.

finally got diagnosed with adhd...apparantly this is the gift of most sucessful entreprenours. only time will tell. i have an itch to leave the country. i haven't been anywhere signifigant since peru. oh peru. id rather avoid another episode of that nightmare. though still, no regrets.

impending trips include....possibly columbia in march. i'd like to go back to jersey either this month or next. money is a bitch. i am going to taiwan for sure in may...this shall be payed for by the gracious student loans i receive this month.

then comes the issue of where to study in the summer. i could do london for three weeks in the summer. but, it seems so bland. they speak english...so many damn americans, i might as well stay here. but i can't deal with another florida summer. so i can go anywhere. i prefer south america. but, im keeping my options open. for now. who knows. every plan tends to change, so i can't really depend on anyone/anything. hopefully, i'll be able to keep this thing updated more so this semester than last.